~kagayaki-sama

Recently I feel as though some kind of dark cloud has been hovering above me, like there is a wall that I am far too small to climb is blocking my way to happiness. I feel empty and isolated, even with people around me. I've felt like I don't know myself and never really have. All of my memories of better times have tried keeping me company, but in the end it only ends up hurting. It's getting to the point where I feel the definition of happiness, to me, slipping away, slowly but surely. I lie in bed some nights staring at whatever is directly in line with my eyes, hoping that maybe with the solitude comes an answer. An answer that will solve my empty feeling, if I think hard enough without any distractions, whether they be from people or objects.
I have no time to talk to anyone about it because I'm so busy trying to figure out what it is that's making me feel this way, and trying to work out how to get rid of it.
Things I loved seem to be becoming uninteresting, and things I used to hate seem to be of no relevance anymore. It's as if I'm being left emotionless buy a flock of life-absorbing vulchers, I feel nothing for anyone, and have become a monotone human. All I want is to know why, and what can fix it. It's not like I'm asking for world peace, all I want is that one thing.

If anyone has any idea as to what I'm going through (bare in mind I'm only young, so it isn't a midlife crisis) please, tell me. You may just give me the answer I'm looking for.